Dream life

There is this woman whose blog I read sometimes, who is somehow living my ideal dream life. I am incredibly jealous.

1. cute greyhound
2. Minnesota (okay, so not Madison, WI, but close enough)
3. modern home she built with her husband?/significant other
4. they race bikes, of which they own a crapload. Ducatis. hott!
5. their living room looks directly into their amazing garage, which is full of motorcycles, leathers, etc.
6. from what i can tell, she spends her time designing cool stuff for her house (her bathroom was featured in the NYT!), designing and sewing cool stuff she sells, and cooking.

What the deuce am I doing in medical school?

SWEET

I think only William and Helen read this blog, and I know both of you are actively interested in the status of my toenail, since I've consulted you both on what to do with it. Here are some update pictures!

Aww, bruised toe!



Here, for the first time ever, you can see a part of my toe that has never been exposed to direct sunlight before!





The other reason to be excited is that Matthew sent me my bird t-shirts he made! I will post pictures when I get some time to lay them out and photograph them.

byebye!

Good run/Bad run

Went for a great run yesterday with my fav running partner Emily at Loch Raven Reservoir. So many motorcyclists! <3 One end of the park had been closed off, so we ended up parking at the way bottom of the new dam. We tried running counter-clockwise around the lake, but then we turned onto this busy road with no shoulder and we weren't getting enough room from the speeding cars (although we got a whole bunch of waves from a group of motorcyclists), so we turned back because we didn't want to die. We went uphill for about a mile, then rolling hills, then another big hill, and then we turned around when the road ended. A total of 80 min, probably about 10 miles. My left foot was kind of bothering me, but it was okay. There's a nerve that runs over my maybe-bunion on my left foot that has been irritated by my stupid Danskos, and when you press on it, I get pain and numbness in my big toe. Then, what I think might be tibialis anterior has been really tender and weird-feeling (almost like it's a nerve problem too) where it crosses the angle of my ankle, and the tongue of my shoe has been kind of pressing on it ever time my ankle flexes.

SO, I meant to go out to do some LSD around noon, but my tendon/nerve in my ankle was hurting so much I ran around the block and had to go home. I got into my car and drove down to Fells Point to what I thought was the Falls Road Running store. Turns out, they haven't had that location in a year. So I drive all the way up to Pikesville, spend a whole bunch of time at Fleet Feet, and and as usual, spend a ridiculous amount of money on shoes and a sports bra. I almost bought a top, but I resisted. I stopped by the Falls Road Running Store on Falls Road since I was kind of in the area already, but it didn't have anything good. So I went home, had a REAL crappy run, and that was it. WHAT A WASTE OF AN AFTERNOON! sheesh! But at least I get to add these guys into the rotation:

Brooks Infiniti



I'll let you know how they go.

Having a good week ^_^

What a ridiculous week! School has gotten a bit better I think as my bad attitude towards 90hr work weeks is improving. I'm so over the 80hr week this week it's not even funny, and it's not going to stop probably until end of next week when I have a 1 day weekend.

Sat: 0500-2130, net 16.5h
Sun: off, net 16.5h
Mon: 0530-0130(that is 0130 on TUESDAY), net 36.5h
Tue: 0500-1630, net 48h
Wed: 0530-
Thurs: -1300, net 79.5h
Fri: 0500-? probably 1800 (it's clinic), net probably 92.5h
Sat: 0530-? probably 1500 (last case scheduled till 1430)
Sunday: ON CALL AGAIN WTF?! 0600-
Mon: -? probably 1200ish.

My attending is a operating BEAST. I thought I would be miserable because of working so much, but I am kind of ambivalent. I was hoping doing this SubI would help me make a decision, but now I'm almost more unsure than ever. I was hoping I'd either love it or hate it, but now I don't know... I love being in the OR, but there is just so much bullshit waiting you have to do, and soooo many houurrssss. I am tired and unhappy and falling asleep during the day and I come home, eat some random stuff and fall asleep immediately. I don't have time to do my residency app stuff, and if I do, I'm too tired to concentrate. But given the circumstances, I'm not THAT unhappy to wake up and go to school in the morning. And looking back on the past week, it was pretty good. I don't know. ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

(Speaking of working hard, I was talking to one of the anesthesiology residents after a case today and he was talking about how hard anesthesiologists work because they put in 12hr days and they are working hard the whole time. I'm not mad at them or anything, that's cool if you like anesthesia, but I would have to disagree with that statement. I'd like to point out that my attending hasn't gone home before MN in the past week except Wed, and I just got a page that apparently the fellow is with him in the OR right now, and the senior res is still admitting patients. Now I feel bad for going home post call :( )

ANYWAYS, I should stop complaining because I actually had a pretty good week. Had a nice weekend, saw some cool stuff in the OR this week and the team is starting to trust me more to do more things. I'm being pretty helpful to my intern by taking call with him and carrying a bunch of the GI cross cover pagers. The other day I had 4 pagers on my scrubs and they were pulling them down! At least I'm not on the other surgical team that, although they take call q5, have to carry 6 pagers, hahahaa. They look like pager superheroes because the whole front of their pants are taken up by this belt of pagers. Running has been more sporadic and painful because of lack of sleep and poor diet, BUT I did 18 on Sun, I just had an amazing 11 miler just now in the pouring rain, and I'm getting faster! I'm tempted to buy these, mostly because they look so cool:

The adiZero Tempaya 2! Anyone know anything about them?



And since I'm on their website, I might as well get this too:




THEN, I came home the other day and my bf had made me dinner!!!!!!!!! Delicious. Mmmmm... mushrooomssss....



And I checked my LLS fundraising site today AND I'VE MADE MY GOAL!!! I cannot thank everyone enough, and I'm so excited, I can barely stand it. And, the sketchbook I thought I lost... FOUND IT!

So all in all, a pretty sweet week. Except for clinic all day tomorrow and this:



Dammit I think it's going to fall off after all...

Edit: It's Friday, I just got home, and I'm going back in a couple hours for an awesome spit fistula slash esophagectomy, possible gastrectomy on a guy with the most badness filled CT I have ever seen!

Yipee!

What a great day! For some reason I thought Em and I usually leave for our long runs at 7:00, but apparently it's 7:30... Whoops... So I woke her up extra early, and we drove to the Sparks stop on the NCR trail. We were both pretty tired and the first couple mins were painful and slow and I was really worried that the run would be miserable. Fortunately, we settled into a good moderate pace, the weather was beautiful (cool and dry) and I felt pretty good until about mile 12. Miles 12 to 18 got kind of painful because my hip flexors were getting sore, so I did take 2 100-step walk/stretch breaks, which helped a TON. Em also really encouraged me and helped me not slow down too much, meaning we ended the day with a solid 18 miles behind us. ^_________^ Then, it was off to: Wegman's, study, countryside drive, and now work again. I'm pretty happy with how today turned out. Sorry no pictures, I am lazy.

Best part of the day: beautiful weather and scenery
Worst part of the day: forgetting Vaseline and the subsequent chafing that ensued at mile 16+

Right toe cured!

Lanced this afternoon by a friend. Toe and needle prepped with Betadine in the usual medical school nerd fashion. Serous fluid actually shot across the room. Right toe now pain free but still purple colored. Left toe still hurting, but no sign of blister.

Too tired to concentrate, going to bed. But first:

Oh, I guess it's not as bad as I thought!




OH WAIT, IT IS



I'm almost entirely sure that the toenail isn't supposed to be 1. HURTING and 2. riding so high above my actual toe





Comparison same-toe-other-side normal shot: