Having a good week ^_^

What a ridiculous week! School has gotten a bit better I think as my bad attitude towards 90hr work weeks is improving. I'm so over the 80hr week this week it's not even funny, and it's not going to stop probably until end of next week when I have a 1 day weekend.

Sat: 0500-2130, net 16.5h
Sun: off, net 16.5h
Mon: 0530-0130(that is 0130 on TUESDAY), net 36.5h
Tue: 0500-1630, net 48h
Wed: 0530-
Thurs: -1300, net 79.5h
Fri: 0500-? probably 1800 (it's clinic), net probably 92.5h
Sat: 0530-? probably 1500 (last case scheduled till 1430)
Sunday: ON CALL AGAIN WTF?! 0600-
Mon: -? probably 1200ish.

My attending is a operating BEAST. I thought I would be miserable because of working so much, but I am kind of ambivalent. I was hoping doing this SubI would help me make a decision, but now I'm almost more unsure than ever. I was hoping I'd either love it or hate it, but now I don't know... I love being in the OR, but there is just so much bullshit waiting you have to do, and soooo many houurrssss. I am tired and unhappy and falling asleep during the day and I come home, eat some random stuff and fall asleep immediately. I don't have time to do my residency app stuff, and if I do, I'm too tired to concentrate. But given the circumstances, I'm not THAT unhappy to wake up and go to school in the morning. And looking back on the past week, it was pretty good. I don't know. ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

(Speaking of working hard, I was talking to one of the anesthesiology residents after a case today and he was talking about how hard anesthesiologists work because they put in 12hr days and they are working hard the whole time. I'm not mad at them or anything, that's cool if you like anesthesia, but I would have to disagree with that statement. I'd like to point out that my attending hasn't gone home before MN in the past week except Wed, and I just got a page that apparently the fellow is with him in the OR right now, and the senior res is still admitting patients. Now I feel bad for going home post call :( )

ANYWAYS, I should stop complaining because I actually had a pretty good week. Had a nice weekend, saw some cool stuff in the OR this week and the team is starting to trust me more to do more things. I'm being pretty helpful to my intern by taking call with him and carrying a bunch of the GI cross cover pagers. The other day I had 4 pagers on my scrubs and they were pulling them down! At least I'm not on the other surgical team that, although they take call q5, have to carry 6 pagers, hahahaa. They look like pager superheroes because the whole front of their pants are taken up by this belt of pagers. Running has been more sporadic and painful because of lack of sleep and poor diet, BUT I did 18 on Sun, I just had an amazing 11 miler just now in the pouring rain, and I'm getting faster! I'm tempted to buy these, mostly because they look so cool:

The adiZero Tempaya 2! Anyone know anything about them?



And since I'm on their website, I might as well get this too:




THEN, I came home the other day and my bf had made me dinner!!!!!!!!! Delicious. Mmmmm... mushrooomssss....



And I checked my LLS fundraising site today AND I'VE MADE MY GOAL!!! I cannot thank everyone enough, and I'm so excited, I can barely stand it. And, the sketchbook I thought I lost... FOUND IT!

So all in all, a pretty sweet week. Except for clinic all day tomorrow and this:



Dammit I think it's going to fall off after all...

Edit: It's Friday, I just got home, and I'm going back in a couple hours for an awesome spit fistula slash esophagectomy, possible gastrectomy on a guy with the most badness filled CT I have ever seen!